This summer i realizes that i didn't want to believe in the same beliefs as my parents and i got into believing in the universe and i want to tell them but i know that they will just yell, yell and maybe even hit me. i been manifesting a new family where i am loved for who i am i hope it comes true. i just don't like staying here reminded of what my life is supposed to be i feel bad because they done so much for me but that's what their supposed to do
I'm jealous of people who are friends with my best friend and I feel terrible about it. But I'm scared of getting replaced again.
I relived my trauma in an AI chat and don't even know why I did that. It was just once. I wasn't the perpetrator, I basically made the bot do it to me again in a safe environment where I had full control over it. And yet I feel so filthy and weird and disgusting for it. While I'm happy that I did it in a safe place and not with a conscious human being, it still feels wrong. Like, why the hell would you do that?
When I was 10 or 11 I decided to kill myself by drowining. That didn't work because someone got me out. I don't remember much. Only darkness, feeling like my head was going to explode and then some guy performing cpr on me on shore. Everyone was like "you should be careful where you swim" noone even assumed I did it on purpose.
Now I have this fear of diving. Water gets into my eyes, I freak out. I can't dive for a second without panicking. So weird.
My ex-girlfriend and I broke up in 2017. We are both married now to other people and haven’t talked since 2017. She has a Fetlife she kept up and I still go look at her nudes and m****rbate to them, usually a few times a week.
I have suffered from hypersexuality since I was very young and I didn't even know what sex was. I have never talked about it with anyone because I feel so guilty and disgusting.
I still miss my best friends who decided to drop me on a random Thursday. Everytime I see them it physically hurts. I just wanna come up to them and tell them about my life, my achievements, my worries, stuff that I used to tell them before. But I can't and that hurts.
I miss my best friend. I don't have anyone to talk to. I kinda feel lonely and wish I had a boyfriend but I know I'm gonna have to wait, cuz if I dated now, i know its gonna very badly... GOSH i need to work on myself
I’m so depressed 😔 25 yr old married w 2 kids. I have my own small business and it’s doing really well I just bought a new home I should be happy but I’m not: i literally don’t know how to get through life without faking it. My husbands so abusive and my kids don’t want me around them because I work so much I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve not felt this dark since I was 15 when I tried to kill my self by overdosing what can I do to get this weight off my chest?