I feel like throwing up just by looking at her picture. I'm jealous of her, I envy her, wanting to be exactly like her but I'm nowhere near. Almost started hyperventilating last just by thinking of her. This isn't jealousy or envy anymore...

I’m fed up with how things are, aren’t you?

During the revolution, we will need to eat. Plant a Victory Garden.

I’m never going to change. Even when I try I can’t maintain good habits for longer than a couple weeks. It would be easier to stop bothering instead of wasting time and resources trying and failing to improve anything about myself

I also want someone to write a love confession to me, just so I can be toxic

I’m straight (or at least I think I am) but I would make a pretty amazing lesbian

starting to go back to old habits

I think I like you. I don't know if it's because I feel lonely after what has happened or if I really do like you. I have friends, sure, but I want to feel a meaningful connection with someone. I feel like a lingering friend with no aim and no direction. Maybe I'm just chasing a high. Maybe the little things that happen between us mean nothing. Somewhere inside me wishes they do. The way our friends tease us about being close makes me smile sometimes, but I don't know if you feel the same way. I don't know if I should try and find a deeper connection with you or if I should just let it stay as a friendship. I'm scared of hurting you. I'm scared of rejection and I'm scared of doing you wrong. I feel I'm sensitive and too emotional at times. You deserve the best person you can get and I don't think I'm mature enough, seeing as how I handle these kinds of feelings. I wish I could tell you everything, about how I feel and I want to know if you feel the same. -ec

i'm lesbian. ive known it for years, even when i was little id have "strange" feelings for girl characters in movies and shows. something about their sensitivity, empathy, and affection is just unmatchable. i've never had feelings for guys even tho i tend to have more guy friends than girls. the problem is that im a christian. i value the Lord very much. it kills me to know that i want to just be with a girl when its explicitly wrong in the Bible. i just hate it. i can't help it, i didn't choose to have these feelings. if i could id be straight so i didnt have so much conflict in my mind. no one knows and i plan on taking this to the grave with me. my family would be so disappointed in me. if God didn't want me to have feelings for girls which i know he doesnt, WHY DID HE MAKE THEM SO PERFECT??!! come on now. my friend asked me "if __ isnt your type who is?" LITERALLY HER. i just said "i don't know ive just grown up more comfortable around guys so its hard for me to see them that way"

A friend blocked me without notice after I answered a question he asked me related to a mental illness I likely have. I created another account to keep seeing his socmed posts.