I want to stop lying but my whole life was and is built on it. I dont know how to break out of the cycle.
I was angry disrespectful impatient selfish immature prideful I complained to God I overreacted I was selfish unloving unmerciful lazy insensitive I was anxious afraid worried paranoid I had resentment worldly sorrow I was self righteous and I had a martyr like attitude I was ungrateful stubborn I was threatening I was manipulative divisive insecure faithless I had violent and suicidal thoughts and I passed judgment against others
I feel very alone....I think throughout my life no one has ever actually liked me. I genuinely don't understand why I can't just easily become friends and interact with people normally like everyone else. I don't think anyone will ever like me as long as I live. I'm pretty sure any of the people who would call themselves my "friends" more of see me as annoying and a nuisance.............
I hate my life. I honestly cannot think of one good day in 42 years. The best days in my life are also the worst, the few people I could trust in my life but at the same time I was taking other peoples lives everyday. Now most of my army friends have already chosen to move on.
I’m super miserable. I feel like nobody cares about me or wants me around I am in a relationship and I have friends but I still feel lost and empty and like I cannot keep going. I want out and no body around me will ever understand it
i think my values when i was younger was much clearer than they are now. i think i need to sit down and talk to 6yr old me. i thinks she would be able to give better comfort and advice than i would be able to right now.
I don't know how to tell my friend to stop sending me encouragement 5 times a day, i aprechiate it very well, the only problem i have is it comes completely out of context and mostly isn't related to what i'm talking about. I really like them, but i just want it to maybe lessen a bit and not come out of context
I feel like I'm watching my life pass by like a movie but it's not me playing the main role. I'm just watching as the time goes by year after year and feeling numb about it. I don't know how to break that cycle.
I have a chronic illness that still lets me live a semi normal life (just in constant awful pain) and sometimes I wish it got worse or I developed something else so I could be hospitalised and just rest in hospital for a few months. I’m so so tired of everything. I just want to be taken care of, being an adult is too difficult. I need a break from everything