I either lay in bed and do nothing all day or obsessively clean the entire house until I either throw up or fall asleep. Also, I hate myself.
I really like this guy I am seeing. However a part of me is mad that he doesn’t have a car. I live alone and he doesn’t so it’s much easier for him to come here but I feel like it’s an issue and even going on dates is a problem. I’m not sure I’m making reasons up cause I’m afraid he will break my heart or if this is really a problem I can’t get over... I’m trying to ignore it but it really really annoys me.
Sometimes I wish I had someone to call my love or some cute couple shit but I’ve always been called ugly. I want to die.
I like walking around my house and property completely nude. I am pretty sure my neighbors have seen me naked but I try to limit it to when I'm in my backyard by the pool. I like to lie naked on an air mattress and watch my neighbor stare at me while she tries to look without me seeing her. I've seen her staring at me through her bushes or one of her upstairs window many times. Sad that she doesn't want to join me.
I am so angry at myself for not donating to Palestinian gofundmes. The ones I see are vetted and are not scams. Although all of them are, which makes me suspicious as to why I haven’t seen any scams so far. Anyways, I just recently came to this conclusion and thought to myself am I responsible for the deaths of these families? Am I So selfish?
I moved into a student housing and all my housemates are exchange students. I feel so angry and cheated. All my classmates are having parties and actually can converse about their normal classes but I have to try to relate and guide these exchange students. They’re nice enough but I f*cking hate it.
What is wrong with me, is this some sort of mental health issue. My breakup has been so bad, I tend to think going back into the past to relive and change is possible. Things don't feel real and I tell myself if I sleep it off I can wake up and everything will turn out to be a dream.
Instagram reels where they ask "go back or forget" make me actually think I can go back in time and this is all just fake.
I’m like inlove with my teacher and I can never be with him but I can’t stop thinking about him at all times. And I can’t tell anyone about it. It’s gotten to the point where my happiness relies on if he talks to be or looks at me. UGH someone tell me what to do
I don’t know what to do but I caught my mum 40 giving our pensioner neighbour 70s giving him oral stimulation in our shed and now I know why she’s been over there in his early morning.