I looked at p*rn yesterday and I didn’t tell my wife or my accountability partner. I’m sorry Lord please help me to walk in the spirit so I will not fulfill the desires of the flesh.
With all my struggles and accomplishments I still desperately want an easy life. And even though there could be someone that maybe makes it possible I am too scared to actually act on it. Still believe that I could find someone I truly love, but I don't think that will ever happen. It makes me feel guilty that I even considering the easy option about being a wife to someone just for the sake of it. Just for the sake of becoming a non working housewife.
I love my girl, but for about 1 month of my life I started liking someone else. So for that time period I was in love with 2 woman, I ghosted the her though because I still love my girl.
My wife's Pomeranian bullies our other dogs. She snaps at me, too. I hate this little b*tch, but they're all rescues. They stay no matter what. But I just hate this dog!
The best night of my life had me and a good friend of mine cuddling in bed. It felt better than cuddling with even my girlfriend. I'm not confused about my feelings or anything, I just feel a bit guilty about it being so nice. I've talked with her about it: she has no issue and I believe her, but I've still thought about cuddling him every day since it happened a few months ago.
I choose me. I don't care what people say or do anymore. I need to take care of myself and not everyone else around me. I am not responsible for your emotions...