I've always hated homewreckers. Always hated the woman my dad used to cheat with. Today, I am a homewrecker. I am married and cheating with my ex who is also married and have a kid. We just don't know how to stop. We stop talking talking for a while but then misses each other and meet again. Its an endless loop.
I feel so bad right now. Just today a relative of mine came to my house. And I have kind of bad placed teeth. So the uncle made a comment on my teeth. And then my grandmother scolded that uncle. All of it was feeling akward. So afterwards I was watching technoblade when my grandmother told me she had scolded him. Then in the embarassment and all for some reason I snapped at her. Then later I felt really really sad. I went to her and kissed her. Then she said she's fine and she's not angry but I still feel so bad. I just hate that uncle. F*uck that uncle. Idiot. I mean me and my grandmother were having a really good relationship, not that I'm saying it's bad after he did that. We still are best friends. But... yeah f*ck that guy.
My mom keep nagging me to be a better future wife and threatening me that my boyfriend will leave me if I didn't change, I'm depressed and getting out of bed is feel so hard, battling with my distorted thoughts that will always whisper negativity, she is right tho and I understand her worries if keep in stagnation didn't change to be normally functioning human, and it's makes my guilt for existing felt more hurt than it already does, I'm eyeing my sleeping pills and thinking should I swallow all of it, I want to be free from this pain, why am I not allowed to delete myself? Because I will make everybody sad? Then what about me that they made me sad everyday? It's not fair.
The other day my bf and I did it right after I got out of the shower and when we were done he made a point to tell me how sexy I looked with my hair wet... Amanda's old Facebook pic was her with her hair wet. Lol fml.
I keep cutting and idk how to stop. I've tried everything, yet I can't even make it 6 months. I feel so disgusting and stupid and I don't know what to do.
I dread visiting the dentist because I have a wisdom tooth and usually they recommend getting them removed, but I’m scared of the pain even though my dentist said they will refer me to a specialist and I will be put to sleep for it because as a kid my childhood pulled my baby teeth out extremely hard. This was back in the late 1990s and it still scars me to this day.
My boyfreind and i scheduled during our class trip for chior but i realozed i signed up when all the slots were taken. I didnt want her to think i hated her so i made the excuse that i got sick. I wasnt lying since i actually forced myself to eat and drink spoiled food. It was awful.