One time a friend asked me to try and get money from pedos with him.. it’s been like a year since that day and now I just can’t stop talking to them… it’s like they actually care about me and how I feel. It makes me feel so good talking to them it makes me sick. I know it’s not smart to talk to pedos especially while I’m still a minor but I can’t stop.. I need serious help but nobody will give it to me
I fell in love with her in the most desperate way. I was afraid of losing her, of saying the wrong thing, of seeing her go; I let my guard down without even realising it, with her my life shined a bit brighter; talking to her was the highlight of my day even if I had to hear about her husband or she calling me 'kiddo' and remarking our 14 year difference. She knew what I felt about her and decided to stay friends if I could handle that. It's been a little more than 4 months and I still ask myself how everything could go so so wrong: her radio silence, her walking away like that, pretending I was a stranger, as if we didn't talk to each other almost every day. I'm sorry for upsetting her and for not respecting her emotional and material boundaries. I was so afraid to lose her that I did lose her, I did say the wrong thing. And oh how I wish for time to go back, so I can talk to her again, so that I won't feel her indifference. I feel like I'm nothing and I miss her.
i get jealous of my friends a lot. not really of them in general but i get more upset than i should when they hang out without me. today my 4 best friends all went out without me and i didn't even know until they sent the photos. it sounds so selfish but i get so jealous when they have fun without me. it's just, it was my four best best friends and they didn't even like tell me, and now they aren't responding to my texts. i don't think they did it on purpose to leave me out, they just didn't invite me. they're really good friends, like they honestly aren't bad people and wouldn't do it to purposely upset me or leave me out, but they did, and it hurts
I think I'm already starting to accept that I will never be able to tell my true thoughts or whatsoever for I have a certain sexual preference that is not accepted by the majority. I wish to not do those things in the real world even though part of myself wants to, quietly begging me for me to do it. I'm still a virgin girl but I've done dirty things online. I'm not proud of what I've done, I'm really not. I don't know the reason as to why I have this certain feeling towards my preference of persons. I feel so torn between keeping my integrity or submitting to my true nature. I hope I find a path that chooses the latter.
As of today, I'm quitting porn for good. I'm a teen. Even when I used to watch i felt bad inside. Now I will stop it and I will be not feeling bad anymore. To anyone who has not stopped watching porn. Just think about it... What if your parents found out you're watching porn. How disappointed they would be. How hard they work for you. Would they be proud? Think about that everytime you watch porn.
I am afraid that I will never find someone who will love me without having to sleep with me. Been listening to that Leith Ross song on repeat lately, iykyk