I feel like everyday I grow to forget who I am more and more. Nothing feels real anymore. I always feel sick, or tired. I've never felt this way before, this whole summer has literally just been me tearing myself apart. I don't understand why I can't just be normal. I go to therapy, I try to evaluate my feelings. But I always just end up shutting down. Nothing ever stops, or fixes itself. I just feel bad all the time.
i started dating this girl august 20th 2021. on july 1st 2024 i started talking to this girl because i only wanted to be friends with her. on july 24th i broke up with the girl ive been dating for almost 3 years, and ever since then ive been gaining feelings for the girl i befriended almost a month ago. this girl also has a bf of almost 3 months, but tbh he is not a good boyfriend at all. my plan is to start dating this girl once i feel ready because i really really like her
ive sent nudes to my old friend in snapchat. she started it first but i also like someone right now. i had sexual needs and i now regret it.
To be honest I do miss you Alondra Ramirez. I miss you all the time. I'm probably just a memory to you now.
I've been talking to this guy and IK he has a gf, but I love him so much and he's been flirting with me A LOT I feel bad for her but then again...
I feel like I will never be in love or find someone who loves me. I am deathly afraid of intimacy and kids, but I want an older handsome man to love me so bad for who I am. I wish I could be loved by someone for me and all my flaws and not just see me for my body. I dated a man for a year and he only pressured me for intimacy the entire time. I never gave in, but I felt hatred towards him for this. I just don't want anyone that makes me feel sick.
wanted to k*ll myself for a long time. the only thing holding me back is that one guy who brings me coffee everyday, i woudnt care if i die right now but what if im the one who will put him to depression?