Today is my birthday... and I wanna k**l myself. I can't, that would be to harsh for everyone else. But I wanted to tell someone that my birthday wish, at 27 years old, is still to not be here anymore.
1. After asking my female friend out, she declined and started to ignore me. Recently found out that she's been talking bad about me. "You thought you had a chance with me?" "He's short" 2. After late replies, being ignored, and constantly being told "No" when I try to get my friends to commit to hanging out, biking, playing sports, making films, and building projects, they've blocked and kicked me out.
i’d do anything to have a good life. a decent one at least. nothing goes how I want it to. my parents are divorced, my father is in jail, my family always argues and fights physically, i feel unsafe around anyone but my cousin and i dont even have a bedroom. i sleep on a couch and we’re poor as dirt. i’d give any and everything to be happy. i’m tired of this. i want to feel safe and cared for, like anyone my age should. i’m only 12 and am close to making an attempt on my life.
i have had recent dreams about my 15 yro brother that as an autistic 12 yro have made me feel unsafe around him. in every dream he’s been in that i can’t remember he has either k*lled me some way or s*xually assaulted me. i’ve never experienced SA or anything like that but the dreams felt real. i felt everything. i don’t know what to do about this and i can’t talk to any family about this due to family issues either. I’ve never thought of him in that way or made advances. I’m begging for advice.
i used to wipe my boogers on the walls in my childhood home when i was 3. i scraped em all off when i cleaned it and there was still some brown on the walls where the snot was oxygenated and i just painted over them 😭
I'm in love with someone and the feeling is mutual. They are unfulfilled and neglected in their existing relationship and they are cheating on their partner with me. I feel guilty but I think they deserve love which they are not getting, and life is too short to wait. I want them to figure out things between their partner, I hate being in this position, but I love them. I love them dearly.
I used to think people were idiots for friend dumping you but now I see why. I wish we weren’t so codependent and I wasn’t such a coward so I can leave you too.
It feels like a lie every time I tell my best friend I love her because most of the time I resent her so much for the abuse we’re putting each other through. We have our good days but during our bad days I wish I never met her.