Jarrett, I should have dumped my boyfriend for you. I chose the wrong guy and now it’s too late.
part4 I hate not knowing if I'm aromantic bi or lesbian because I do find myself "attracted" to people but it was always "wow shes so pretty" basically "simping" but never "love" I don't think I can romantically love anyone and its driving me insane and I'm also hypersexual so that doesn't help with my dilemma if I can love or not I'm worried that I'm only in this relationship to feel "normal" please somebody tell me if I'm aromantic or not
part 3 Even when I was a child every "crush" I had felt forced because I didn't actually feel anything around them I treated them as normal friends and it was the norm so I felt like I had to have a crush but I also feel forced to have a girlfriend because its "normal" I don't think I actually love my girlfriend but I also think I cant romanticly love anyone but I feel bad because shes so nice but I feel I only care for her like my best friend
Part 2 i do enjoy her comfort but i never felt romance i hear people blush or get flustered often have butterflies in their stomachs feel jealous but i never felt that about her i dont get flustered or blush no butterflies the only thing i guess counts as jealousy is my fear of getting replaced and i was always big on affection so anyone i was close with i would hug or hold hands with so my treatment isnt special im trying to trick myself into thinking i am in love but i just dont think i am..
I have a girlfriend and i havent cheated on her or anything she was my bestfriend but things took a turn after i jokingly said we should date and she said yes but now i find myself wondering if i really love her i do care about her deeply but i just dont think its romantic I hear stories of others describing in detail how love feels like but I never had those feelings I do find myself liking the warmth and joy she brings and her praise but I don't think its romance..
my gf of 4 years cheated on me, so i left her for another girl. now the other girl cheated on me, and my ex is addicted to drugs. i still love both of them and i feel like it's all my fault. i feel like they'd both be better off if i were dead.
My friends stress me out. We start to make plans that I'm really excited about and then I ask them if they're going and they say "no, my social battery is dead" which is a fine excuse but now I just have to hope my other friends don't flake. My friends are unreliable and I hate it.