I love my daughter so much, I just feel like a sh*tty mother. I can’t give her the life she deserves. I’m struggling daily and I’m gonna end up destroying my child. Sometimes I think she would be better off if I just disappeared..
i’m not trans, i just wish i was born a man because of how much easier everything would be if i was. i’m an engineer, male dominated field, work is difficult to find cause people prefer men in these professions even though i’m hardworking and passionate about it. people don’t respect me because i’m a girl, they only do if a man is next to me. i’d be able to protect myself without needing anyone. i wouldn’t have to choose between marriage and success. the staring. people don’t see me as a human.
i’m a perfectionist. i hate the feeling of not being to talk about anything to anyone no matter how close they are because of how obsessed i am with being/appearing perfect. i hate that i can’t allow myself to cry because of anyone because how dare i allow myself to be vulnerable. what do you mean you’re crying because someone upset you? i have to be as strong as an iron wall, no matter what. i hate that i can’t even speak about this to anyone because it’ll let people see that I'm not perfect.
I think the world's alright. life sucks a lot of the time but its the bright spots that make it all worth it. Also mint chocolate chip ice cream rules
I just found out that my uncle has schizophrenia, and honestly everything makes sense now. I know I shouldn't feel somewhat disturbed by him, now that I know why he acts the way he does. But I still can't help but somewhat wish he wasn't there, or just acted differently. It's impossible to hold a normal conversation with him, and how he sometimes can't understand completely normal things. I honestly don't know what to feel right now. I don't want to feel this way towards him, but it's hard.
I constantly s*xualize myself for guys online and always hate myself after but i can’t stop. I hate being so hypers*xual and constantly thinking dirty thoughts when all i really want is a guy to just hold me.
You ever want to just fuck someone so bad? Like i want them to sit on my face- grind against it- actually i just want to eat them out- actually i want them to ride me- i want to tell them how good they’re doing and how pretty they look
Underage TW My female cousin once asked me to play the boyfriend girlfriend game in wich she asked me to sit down while she did R rated things to me. We were both very young and ive only ever brought it up to her once but I believe its the reason my sexuality came out so early in my teen life