I feel like, sometimes, I should distance myself from my closest friend. I'm going to ask her to be my maid of honor because she knows me well, I love the crap out of that girl, we support each other and we accept each other. But I love that girl so much, but we do have entirely different beliefs but that has never stopped us from continuing our friendship. However, it can be difficult because she has a more aggressive approach to life that tends to get her into trouble, whereas I, try to approach life with a more level head that keeps me out of trouble. At times she truly scares me with how aggressive she can be. I can't agree with it. She invites chaos into her life all the time & it's terrifying for me. I truly love her, but I truly wish I had a maid of honor who is more like me when it comes to beliefs. Someone who doesn't flip their lid right away when something bad happens. Someone who is not a hot head & doesn't jump to assumptions.
I'm jealous of my ex-best friend, who is now married to my fiancé's brother so she is now going to be my future sister-in-law, because she's growing good relationships with my fiancé's family. We're not quite best friends anymore b/c she often times made me feel like a bad friend & seeing her grow closer w/ the family is like she's taking away something that I yearn for. A connection with my fiancé's family. It's ugly to be jealous & I'm tired of feeling threatened by her all the time. I don't want to feel that way anymore though. I really just want to forgive her w/ my whole heart, love her like she's my sister and just move on from the jealousy & resentment that I feel towards her. I wish I could just turn off the feeling but, unfortunately, that's not the way things go. Genuinely, I do love & care for her still even though we've not close anymore & intend to keep it that way, but feeling this jealousy is bad for me. Praying to God to find a way to rid of this ick.
I sleep in late daily to avoid my mom making a dentist appointment. I’m scared that the dentist will say that I need my wisdom tooth out 😭
I about to reach an age I thought I would never live through and now I don’t know what to do with this extra piece of life. I feel lost.
At a group hangout with my friends, we played paranoia, and one of the boys said I was the ugliest girl in the group. Then he started to act quiet and stopped talking even though he said that. All the girls started feeling bad for me, and that was the worst part. It wasn’t even the fact that he said I was the ugliest girl there—more so that I was pitied by the girls.