I don’t love my girlfriend anymore. I care about her, and I don’t want to hurt her, she doesn’t deserve the pain. We have a home. I don’t know what to do, but I don’t want to carry on not living for myself, and living for someone else. I want to leave, I just don’t know how.
I just want to spend a night with someone just to feel that honest connection between two individuals, where I don't have to fear of getting hurt, or worry about being judged. It doesn't necessarily have to be sexual. Just genuine and mindful. A moment in time just to be reminded again to how it is to feel like being intimate with another soul. My worlds been cold for far too long, I've even considered paying a courtesan for a night. I'm far from being at my lowest point, but it feels close.
i (M) was dating my bsf Will (M) in late 2022, we broke up in february 2023. i was depressed and about to like end it all. i got with a girl in may 2023 and we broke up in october 2023. i’ve finally moved on from her a couple months ago, and im talking to this new girl. i identify as straight now, but i can’t help but want Will back. we’re still bsfs, and i love him sm. i’m inlove with Will and i know better than to confess.
One time i was so so sick i kept sh*tting myself everytime i sat up or coughed, but i was too embarrassed to tell anyone and lost 20 pounds in the process, i shat myself for 2 weeks straight and i was so miserable towards the end because it just wouldnt stop coming out. I shat out every bit of my stomach and still nobody know.
I think i need to stop writing stories that include characters made for each others, because each time i write, the most i think i need one just like them.
I’m afraid of witching hour, so when I’m up at that time I keep lights on, avoid mirrors and other superstitious things, as well as turn off my phone and all electronics. I try to go to bed before that time because of this superstition.
I'm going to sound like a lunatic, but I need to talk to someone about this. It's literally making me feel insane. I recently realised that I'm insanely good at predicting the future. Not in a psychic way, but it's just a feeling. Like, sometimes I'm just sitting there, and I get a random thought/feeling about something that will happen. And so far I've guessed everything correctly. I feel insane, in a bad way. Am I going crazy??? I'm not religious or anything. I don't know how to explain this.
I hate when people sit by me on the bus. I mean go find somewhere else to sit. I am not really looking to make small talk. When I put my bag down on the seat next to me, please take the hint. Oh and when I put on my headphones, take that as a hint too. I seriously wish that I could get a car. I seriously am beginning to hate people. I love humans but god help me, I hate people. Oh and if you don't know the difference, I can't help you bruh.