i (M) was dating my bsf Will (M) in late 2022, we broke up in february 2023. i was depressed and about to like end it all. i got with a girl in may 2023 and we broke up in october 2023. i’ve finally moved on from her a couple months ago, and im talking to this new girl. i identify as straight now, but i can’t help but want Will back. we’re still bsfs, and i love him sm. i’m inlove with Will and i know better than to confess.
One time i was so so sick i kept sh*tting myself everytime i sat up or coughed, but i was too embarrassed to tell anyone and lost 20 pounds in the process, i shat myself for 2 weeks straight and i was so miserable towards the end because it just wouldnt stop coming out. I shat out every bit of my stomach and still nobody know.
I think i need to stop writing stories that include characters made for each others, because each time i write, the most i think i need one just like them.
I’m afraid of witching hour, so when I’m up at that time I keep lights on, avoid mirrors and other superstitious things, as well as turn off my phone and all electronics. I try to go to bed before that time because of this superstition.
I'm going to sound like a lunatic, but I need to talk to someone about this. It's literally making me feel insane. I recently realised that I'm insanely good at predicting the future. Not in a psychic way, but it's just a feeling. Like, sometimes I'm just sitting there, and I get a random thought/feeling about something that will happen. And so far I've guessed everything correctly. I feel insane, in a bad way. Am I going crazy??? I'm not religious or anything. I don't know how to explain this.
I hate when people sit by me on the bus. I mean go find somewhere else to sit. I am not really looking to make small talk. When I put my bag down on the seat next to me, please take the hint. Oh and when I put on my headphones, take that as a hint too. I seriously wish that I could get a car. I seriously am beginning to hate people. I love humans but god help me, I hate people. Oh and if you don't know the difference, I can't help you bruh.
I wanna have someone by my side so bad like I'm not even kidding. I want to have a bf and after a long day i can talk with him and cuddle.
My father is a jerk. He lost his driving licence because of drinking and now he's starting to show is real colours. He shouts at mom for no reason and treats her bad and now he doesn't have a reason to not drink beer every single fucking day. He treats mom bad when she drives and causes her stress and he's not even drunk. I can't imagine what will happen when we get home
I hate how you make me feel and i just wish that for once you actually thought to put my feelings before yours or hers
I've always said I have a few lines I won't cross and that includes falling a man who is in a relationship. Then I did. At first I didn't know he was in one and then when he told me he is in one, he said he wants end it but he hasn't been able to because he doesn't want to break her heart. They've been together for 9 years. I knew I should've stopped talking to him but I felt wanted and seen by him. When my feelings grew too much to handle, I blocked him without saying a word. Now I miss him. :(