I know exactly what is wrong with me but I don't want to change because if I become better and no one wants me, then what? At least if I stay the problem then I don't have to learn how to be okay with people hating me when I'm happy
Im so tired and lonely but my friends are coming tomorrow so I have to get my act together. Money is a struggle too. I cant even open up to anyone about my struggles. I dont know what to do T^T
I tried to figure out when my life began going downhill, but I think it's been a gradual decline since I was born. Fuck. I should kill myself, but I'm a coward, so I'll keep on trying no matter how pointless it gets.
I am going to tell my a girl I work with that I have a major crush on her. I know nothing will come from it, I just want her to know. My only hope is that she doesn't treat me any different. I had a crush on her since covid.
I feel like I'm having the worst few days of my life. My kitten chewed through my headphones. A guy decided to pull a "hey it's me again". I almost cried on my jog last night. I accidentally broke my bowl and I almost cried again
I have been bringing all my stuff up from the basement because if I do need my wisdom teeth out in the future I heard that you can’t lift heavy stuff for several weeks after the surgery
i get influenced easily like even if i know what im doing is right for me , when another person gives his opinion i start to think otherwise , and its killing my brain . I want to continue doing what im doing but i lost that mood when thst particular person disrupted my process with his advice