i’m in love with a boy that I made a character of in my head. he hurt me so much, and I want more than anything for him to apologize to me. lately, i’ve been imagining him having sympathy for me and actually caring about my feelings, and it’s gotten to the point where I have romantic fantasies about him. i act like i’m repulsed by him, and that i don’t have a crush on him. the prior is at least somewhat true, but god, he’s so pretty and he was so nice to me during the end of the year.