I lied about my dad SA me when I was 14. He was verbally abusive and my mom said if she found out he put his hands on me or my siblings, she'd leave immediately. I thought it was the only way out. He got sick before I could say anything about the lie and he died without anyone knowing except my sister and a couple friends. Now everyone knows because of my mom and I feel like I tarnished his life even though he was abusive already.