Lately I feel like a bother to everyone, there's a reason why I like to hide/surpress myself from everyone because for many instances I'll be annoying that person and it makes me feel huge amounts of guilt. So much so that I want to run away or maybe even off myself so I won't be a bother to anyone anymore because I don't exist anymore. It's really hard to try to love myself because I still hate most parts of myself wholeheartedly. I don't know what to do anymore