I specifically like f*ta. I like it because I wish I had one to give instead of receive. And I like the bodies used for the videos, they're wild fantasies but it's still inspiration for me while I work to get fit. I don't know. I just really would like to give than receive, but don't want to be a guy. Maybe it comes from past abuse? I don't know how to explain that to anybody, and I don't feel safe enough to try.