I just wanna be close with my dad. He wasn't this distant when I was little. I'm in college now and I still cry every night for his love, care, attention and approval. I'll take anything at this point. Am I that hard to love? Is he just that busy? Sometimes I consider smoking cigarettes, just that I would have something in common with him. And sometimes I consider not dating anyone, just so he won't feel replaced, I still need him. He's my dad but I'm not his daughter.