Sometimes I feel like all my gf does is manipulate me. She makes me feel bad for not responding even though I can’t control it and all she does is complain about everything while I'm isolated and hopeless. I can’t go anywhere to drive and it’s so hard to try to be better. I want my life back.
I’ve been dealing with and ED for about three years now, I’ve never really reached out to anyone other than my friend who I thought I could trust. I want to get rid of my unhealthy habits but I’m so scared to reach out. My family is always lecturing me about how I never eat, they have no idea how hard it is to eat for me. I want to be like my peers and be able to eat without making myself puke, I feel so tired because of my lack of food intake. I don’t know what to do anymore.
I love my girlfriend so much. we text every night and although some judge us we’ll never break apart. She’s so funny. we were talking today and she said that she’ll cover my mouth anytime I say anything negative about myself and I found that really cute and funny. I love the way her hand feels. Everything about her.
My friend pantsed me a few days ago infront of some girls we know and it low-key turned me on a lot seeing them look at me, even though they were respectful and looked away the initial shock was really hot and I feel dirty even thinking about it.
A couple years ago I slipped in an icy parking lot. It has caused me physical problems. The thing is... I wish I never got a lawyer. My anxiety and depression make me incredibly avoidant and I have to fill out all of these questions and talk to people and the stress is killing me. I can't sleep at night. I just want to be left alone with my pain. Whenever they e-mail me or call I cry until I'm sick and then the pain is worsened from being tense.
I'm really upset right now and I'm really bad at not letting it show. "Don't let other people dictate how you're feeling" shit my mom used to tell me but like is that not how people work? Just feel like stupid advice to me but if I'm wrong I guess I'm stupid or something.
Having a fetish and not being able to scratch it is so bloody frustrating. I want a FJ so freaking bad it's ridiculous and my wife is so vanilla in the bedroom. She's indulged me once but hasn't since. Honestly should probably seek help.
I hate AI and what it’s doing to the arts. I also ask it to read things I wrote or analyze drawings I do because nobody else will ever see or care about them, and it makes me feel a little seen and loved. And then I hate myself for both the AI usage and my inability to create something people would want to see or read.