I just found out one of my childhood friends overdosed last year. She was barely a year older than me. Rest in peace Eva.

I want to marry my boyfriend, i love him so much but financially we cant afford to move in together just yet and its so tough having the patience. Despite this i know itll happen soon and i just need to work hard so we can live together and have a perfect future together.

A, I can't believe I almost forgot the night time calls when you'd sing I love you, it melted my heart and you melted my heart, then I'd giggle in a blush and say it back. To feel so special and loved was euphoric. I fucked up big time the way I did, we both made mistakes but I regret mine and wish I could turn back time. Too late now of course but it is what it is. I now shall accept friendship from you, you are still a beautiful human in my eyes and I'll always have platonic love for you. I am stunned that I forgot such a special memory until now, I must have suppressed it whilst working on being friends only. I am extremely thankful most of all. I've learnt alot. I'm not mad anymore I'm not that sad just a temporary mourning tonight. Just glad you still allow me to be in your life after it all. For that I'm grateful. I am very lucky to have met you. Fuck I could ramble on for days but for now I will sign off.

The difficult truth is that nobody truly cares about you and your inner world, only the concept of you. Everyone is self-serving. So enjoy the things you like in the way you like them, because nobody else will. External validation is a lie.

looks like they stopped approving after may 8th but i need to type this somewhere i dont care i hate that my partner acts like an adult. i dont want him to smoke or drink. i want him to be soft, cute,pure, naive, innocent. i hate hate hate the fact that were both adults. i wish he was my cute little brother and that i could coddle him and protect him from this disgusting fucking world. i wish he was a virgin. i wish he was shorter than me. i wish he didn't use bad words. i love him so so so much i really do, its why i dont want anyone else, i just want him. i want him to talk to me only. i dont like when he talks to his friends who are older and cooler than me, because im supposed to be the cool older one, im younger than him and shorter which makes me want to cry. i fucking hate this so much i want to fucking die, im never going to get what i want and i should just die already, im so sick and disgusting

I’ve given up on my bipolar sibling. I kept reaching out to them and trying to help. It would be repeated cycles of them being kind and then acting paranoid, cold, and mean. They act like they hate our family with a vengeance. They talk horribly about everyone. They don’t trust anyone no matter how hard they try. I stopped reaching out and they don’t reach out to me either. I was the only one keeping the relationship together. So I just stopped. I’m tired. I’m tired of the negativity and of them talking horribly about people who are genuinely good. I know with their illness they can’t help it. But I can’t do it anymore. They don’t want to take meds either. I can only do so much. I have tried saying I’m here if you want to talk. Literally NOTHING helps. So I’m gone now. Everyone in the family is doing the same. Know that we tried many many times. This is goodbye. I love you but I’m tired. Hope you’re ok.

I need to cry. I sit here, not alone. Everything I need at the tip of my fingers. Yet, my brain can't stop the near tears and watery eyes trying not to let them flow, relationship troubles have me in my funk. Already separated, but now going to be more separated and I've come to accept this is for the best. I am oddly enough hurt, but not hurt at the same time. Sad but not sad at the same time. Not angry. I'll get over it eventually. I will soon let the tears flow when I have the space to do so. Just having to fathom I will never feel that comforting hug grasp me, knowing I can be vulnerable in his arms. The sex doesn't matter. It was about having MY person. I know life goes on and it will. But for now, I need to cry.

I have emotionally-induced erectile dysfunction. I workout and sprint - always had superb libido before, but when I hit 25yo, things changed. When I try to become intimate with someone, I get extremely sad and become disgusted. I’ve been cheated on multiple times and still dream of having a beautiful family.

My friend is so annoying. I don’t know if I can keep up our friendship any longer because I just want to block him sometimes.

Dog park date: I go to our town's dog park during the day when I'm working remotely. Today, it was a little rainy and I ended up drinking my coffee under a shelter with a 19 year old woman (I'm a 55 year old guy) while our dogs ran around together. Long story short, she ended up giving me the most amazing blowjob I've had in years because--as she put it--I looked like I needed it and she was in the mood. I drove home two hours ago and I'm still grinning! No guilt, no intention of confessing...just praying for more rain this weekend.